Why am I so Angry?

I've been so busy lamenting about my life and how bad I feel. How the trauma in my life has escaped the confines of my brain and is returning to taunt me. I have been playing the victim to anyone that would listen. All I was accomplishing was turning people away. I don't know, maybe that's what I secretly wanted. It's usually my M.O. the more pain I feel inside the more I push people away so they can't see. I would rather push them away with my rage and alienate myself than let anyone see how irrevocably broken I am, how raw my wounds still are, how fragile and sensitive I am.

Then I got a Yahoo news alert that a motorist was shot and killed by an ICE agent in Minneapolis, Minnesota. I am not a normal Yahoo news person, I get my news from BBC, NPR and Ground News. Anywhere else gets fact checked through multiple sources. I am sure I still get biased news that is missing facts. Somehow, Yahoo News got this information and disseminated it quickly. Immediately, upon reading the headline, I somehow knew that the victim was an innocent American citizen who at the very worst was trying to protect other innocent human beings from being disappeared by unidentified masked men. It didn't take long to find out my gut was right.

Her name was Renee Nicole Good and she was a mother of three. It polarized the nation. She was not the first American citizen to be murdered by ICE in front of other citizens and she wouldn't be the last. This was different, not only did the videos get out on social media fast but they were shared over and over, faster than the government could take them down, faster than the government could create their own AI images and videos to create their own narrative. Then Kristi Noem spoke about the shooting, creating a narrative that did not jive with what had all just seen in real time. As we were now watching the video of ICE agents preventing a physician from tending to the mother of three as she lay dead or dying, Kristi Noem is telling us that Good was intentionally trying to kill officers! Then Trump tells us that she actually ran the officer over and he's recovering in the hospital. WE SAW THE VIDEO! Nobody was run over. The man that shot her three times in the face casually walked away. People were referencing 1984 by Orson Welles. Hell, it was like we were living 1984.

I tried to talk about her and I cried because that could have been me or any of my friends. I could feel her fear as I watched that video. She attempted to wave them past so they could just drive past her, but they didn't. They tried to trap her, one drove past and stopped in front of her car so she couldn't leave. The next one as she waved him along crept up and then stopped. Suddenly ICE agents jumped out of both cars and began to swarm her car. She only saw the agents coming from the one side, the side she was looking. You can hear them tell her to get out of there, but she can't because she's boxed in. That's why she had to reverse to be able to drive around the SUV that had stopped in front of her. As she tried to slowly pull away and leave the area as she was told, an officer reached for her handle and she tried to flee. Who knows if she ever even saw the officer that shot her. He already had his gun drawn. He should have never had his gun drawn in the first place!!! All he had to do was continue to move out of her way. It was illegal to step in front of her car like he did. They had no right to detain her in the first place. We all have seen other citizens pulled from their cars, handcuffed, pepper sprayed, tased, beaten, and/or shot by ICE, of course she was scared. If you are black, all of the above and in that order can be expected if you follow or don't follow commands of any agent of the law.

By the way, the regime is trying to say the ICE agent in question may have had PTSD because of a previous incident where he was drug by a suspect and required 38 stitches. If you get a chance read the report of said incident, make sure you do. First, if his PTSD is so bad about the incident that he pulls his gun when it is not legally required to do son, then he should have a desk job. Second, in the first incident, he broke the back window of a person who was getting ready to leave an area and tried to unlock the door without giving any indication who he was. The driver, seeing a large masked man, break his back window and try to unlock the back door did what any sane person would do, he took off. This guy seems to have a problem with how to approach people in cars legally.

Next, I notice on social media that people are saying about Renee Good, Rest in Power and Say her Name. I like that she is being remembered as a hero, because our country needs heros right now. We need heros and, unfortunately martyrs. Martyrs are going to be what finally sparks the revolution that will finally stop our dictator. Nobody is going to come "save" us; we have to save ourselves. Unfortunately, the use of these phrases are insulting some black people. Some feel that it is appropriating their culture, their struggle, their oppression. This made me really upset. I am sorry that people would feel that way during a time like this. Because that means the regime is still winning, that means the racial caste system is no closer to being broken. If there is one thing that I have learned in my black history studies, it's that the rich elite created the racial caste system to keep blacks down and to create a racial divide among the lower and middle class. If we keep fighting each other, we forget who our real enemy is!! We have to embrace each other and empower each other. I am in no way trying to minimize the systemic oppression of black people in the United States by any means. Our country was built on the backs of black people. But when you look at history, you will see that it was the rich elite in the south that created the racial divide as a way to oppress the black people even more. The more we work together, the more the rich and the government will try to divide us. We have come too far to fall backwards. DO NOT LET THAT HAPPEN.

Since I started talking about race, we have to address the reality of why Renee Good has polarized the nation. Yes, her race plays a part. She was blonde and white, she was a mother of three. Up until that she is the perfect US citizen, right. She wasn't the first innocent US citizen shot and killed by ICE, but she was the first white woman. She was the second person in four months. I don't know the name of the first person. There wasn't any news about it. Not sure about a video. I believe he was a black man. It got swept under the rug and the agent was not disciplined. You see the difference here. Yes, it has 100% to do with race and the video. Although, by today, the government released videos are being spread all over the internet. By the way, I did leave out that she was queer and I still think she was the perfect US citizen. It warms my heart that she is still embraced by our country as such especially in the face of our regime.

What do we do now? I don't know the answer to that question. We have to continue fighting back. We take the chance of Trump declaring martial law, but I think that's what he wants. He will eventually find a way. We can NOT let him continue to kill innocent human beings, citizen or not. Once they make it to our soil they are protected. It is written in the US Constitution. It is how our nation came to be, it is what made our nation so amazing at one point. We didn't kill all of those Native Americans and steal their land for nothing. One thing I think we should do, is while some of us are confronting ICE agents, why aren't some of us bugging their cars? or slashing their tires? I mean that sounds like fun, right? I mean if you're going to get arrested, you might as well commit a crime, right?

For the record, there were 32 confirmed deaths at ICE detention centers in the US in 2025. The most in two decades.