Taking the Day Off

3/4/2026

Was I able to get the raw visceral anger that is fermenting inside me about Kansas in my last post across to you, my Radical Readers? I'm just so disgusted by what has happened. Worse, horrified by what it signifies is to come.

I've been thinking I really need to devote some time to writing that may bring me an income one day. I can't work. That becomes more evident with each passing day. I push myself as hard as I can to be a productive member of this household. It's not possible seven days a week. Hell, it's not possible five days a week. But my family lets me pass because I'm such a fucking ray of sunshine and on good days, I can still cook like a classically trained chef.

I have two novels, a memoir, poetry, short stories, creative non-fiction, story starts, all kinds of shit, all on the back burner while I rant an rage to a limited audience thinking I'm making some sort of difference, even if it's only making me feel better.

The whole page started as way to create my "brand" as a writer. To make a name for myself as I worked on one of my novels and my memoir. Then I had my "episode" that put me in the hospital and my brain got fried. Suddenly, everything was even more amplified than it was before, especially my anger.

Why are you so angry?

I kept getting asked over and over? Getting asked that only made me angrier. I only had to gesture with my hands at the general state of things. I was still recovering from brain swelling while I was in the hospital and was told that it could take weeks to months to recover from the damage. I was also having a bad reaction to my medication. Did I mention we had a sexual predator as a POTUS and I am a child sexual assault survivor multiple times over?

WHY AM I SO ANGRY?? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? WHY AREN'T YOU ANGRY?

Yeah, so I started venting on this page. Then FUAPPAA rose from the flames like a phoenix. I started channeling my anger more creatively. My brain healed. I came off of the offending medications. Now, I am not so outwardly angry. Well, people aren't afraid to be around me anymore. Unfortunately, it's looking like they want to start being around me again. So, I may have over-compensated.

Yesterday took a lot out of me. I didn't feel well to begin with. Then I wrote about Kansas………fucking Kansas. It took an emotional toll on me. Between the weather, the fibrovid, and my writing, I was a painful ball of electrified hyperactive nerves yesterday. Sometimes, I wonder if there is any connection between being an empath and having fibro. Who knows? When I was originally diagnosed, my rheumatologist chalked it up to trauma and/or the Long Covid. When I was going through my "trauma" with the neuropsychologist, she told me she was surprised it took this long for my brain to break. Then, I found out it runs in my mom's family and it appears as though I've had it a while. All of my trauma just made it worse.

So, I thought, I would take today off from being pissed off at chumpy chomo and his cockamamie crew and write something creative to put on one of my other pages. I've been thinking of writing with a different musical artist each week to see how that affects my writing.

Today I start with Tom Waits.

WHY THE FUCK DO I GET A DAY OFF FROM CHUMPY CHOMO AND HIS BULLSHIT?

WHY DO I GET TO PRETEND LIKE EVERYTHING IS SUNSHINE AND CUPCAKES?

AFTER THAT COCKSUCKER STOLE, YEAH I SAID IT, STOLE TEN BILLION DOLLARS IN TAX PAYER DOLLARS AND PUT IT INTO ANOTHER ONE OF HIS FRAUDULENT SCHEMES, THE BOARD OF PEACE. THEN HE PROMPTLY STARTED ANOTHER WAR!!

HOW STUPID ARE WE?

WHY IS HE STILL ALLOWED TO PRETEND TO BE PRESIDENT?

WHY HASN'T HE BEEN REMOVED?

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!

THE UNITED STATES CONSTITUTION IS WRITTEN TO PREVENT THIS FROM HAPPENING!

HEY CONGRESS

DO YOUR FUCKING JOB!!!!

REMOVE THIS TRAITOROUS FUCK FROM HIS POSITION OF POWER AND ARREST THE ENTIRE CABINET BEFORE THE PLUNGE THE ENTIRE PLANET INTO WWIII

FOR FUCK'S SAKE

Sorry about all of the yelling, my Radical Readers. It just seems like common sense at this point. It seems like it was over a year ago that I fi rst said that the United States Marshalls had the authority to arrest him for treason. It continues to hold today. I don't give two fucks what the U.S. Supreme Court ruling says. In my opinion, when the charge is treason, your immunity goes out the window, just like it will with child sexual abuse and murder, just saying.

I mean who is in charge of the U.S. Marshalls? Why haven't they been ordered to arrest the traitorous fuck yet? Any of the traitorous fucks yet?

Speaking of arrests? Why have there been no arrests in the Epstein files yet? Could we get some more people deposed? Have they started even talking to the victims yet? The last I heard the answer was no.

WHERE ARE THE REST OF THE EPSTEIN FILES???

WHY AREN'T WE SEEING MORE BACKLASH OVER WHAT HAS BEEN RELEASED?

So, this is me taking a day off from watching what is going on our once free country. Taking a day to just listening to Tom Waits relaxing. Trying not to think about the fact that the once free country I was so proud to grow up is becoming a fascist state before my very eyes.

Gone are our checks and balances. The Supreme Court essentially thumbed their noses at the United States Constitution July 1, 2024. Now, we have a criminal-in-chief who uses it to wipe his ass if he makes it to the gold plated porcelain throne.

I still can't believe that we ended up here. Somehow, I still get shocked when someone opens their mouth and the ignorant filth drops out of their mouth that lets me know they are part of the MAGAt cult. I don't know why it still shocks me to this day. They've been around for years. Technically, my whole life. they just didn't have the name until the last decade. After the civil rights movement, the educated ones though, they hid their true nature in shame. They wore their masks of civility in public and told their jokes behind closed doors or in email chains. Now, they don't have to hide in shame, because bigotry and blind hatred for anyone that is not white and Christian is A-OK.

How do you take a day off when your beloved once free country is being invaded from within? When the nightmares of your youth are materializing before your eyes? When a Russian asset is way too high up in the government? When the repeal of DEI means that people are no longer hired based on merit, but based on the color of their skin and we can see the folly of this thinking by clusterfuck of a presidential cabinet. But I digress.

It is 12:15 and I am going to attempt to take a shower today AND put fresh sheets on the bed. We're talking about using up practically all of my spoons in one shot. Then we're going to watch Willy's oldest play hockey in A.C.

Onward and Upward.

I'll see what I missed in the world today tomorrow. I do know that we did something last night in Ecuador, but I don't know enough to talk shit and I've vented enough for one sitting. I'm not even proof reading a fifth time. Which means I will be getting a text from Mom soon.

PS-I don't know if you noticed, but I used chumpy chomo twice. I try and use a different moniker for him throughout each post. This is the first time I used chumpy chomo and I really like it. Be prepared to see it a lot for a while.